The first swallows - oblivion

I’m not sure it is connected with current position, but can’t find any another satisfactory reason for the changes, happened to me last time.

Usually quite well organized, I lost my good orderliness, quick wits and smartness. For instance, when the cash finished, I came to nearest ATM, put a card into and then realized that do not remember any digital of pin code, which have entered thousand times before. I’ve tried to remember and made two attempts, both failed. The good thing that automat returned my card and money left not wasted. But I’ve thought all evening about unexpected lapse of memory. My head full of passwords and logins…will I lose them all soon?!

The worse accident happened in a week. I remembered about dad’s birthday 4 days later its date. Lot of people used to forget important dates of close people, but I’m not the like, a nice present was prepared month before! I tried to smooth over shame informing parents about my happiness. They started pitting me, like if I broke my life forever. Love my family and their “support”, how good to leave on my own!

There were also forgetting about meetings, misplacing performance on dance repetitions, loosing important notes ect. One girl, which passed through it, said it is just beginning, further will be worse. She promised me on the late term turning into total dummy.

I was very glad - it’s much easier to live like idiot, empty head, no garbage thoughts, careless, no headaches…